Alarm clock rings, it’s 7 in the morning and I’m rolling over in my bed, barely opening my eyes, contemplating why didn’t I go to bed earlier…Oh that’s right, I was up on my phone watching youtube videos all night again! I look over my phone to see what today is. Great, it’s Sunday. I began to grumble as I jump out of bed and get ready. As I eat my breakfast, I began to think to myself; “Do I really have to go to church today?” I go every Sunday, it wouldn’t hurt to sleep in, right? I just didn’t feel like going. But to avoid any long lectures from my mother, I decide that it would be ideal to be attend church, the pastor is going to wonder where I was. So I drive to church, enter the building, thinking about how much I don’t want to be here and how comfortable I’d be in my bed. As I walk inside of the sanctuary, I see people laughing, talking and smiling and it begins to puzzle me. “Why are they so happy?” I ask myself. “I’m not feeling that way at all!” As I take my seat and look around, I begin to think about the reason why I’m not experiencing the same joy as everybody else. “Oh yes, the horrible week I had!” I say to myself. The stress and work and the heavy workload, the bills that are unpaid, problems with my car, and the list goes on. It seems like there was a huge cloud hanging over my head through the whole week. I said to myself; “I’m not going to stand here and act like everything in my life is alright.” Besides it would be hypocritical to act as such and we have the right to feel the way we want to feel.
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